Over the last few weeks, more and more people have mentioned to me that they think I am lucky. People have said thing like I am lucky because I have an amazing house, lucky I have my own studio, lucky I can still make a living during the COVID outbreak, lucky I have amazing sons, and lucky I am active, thin and healthy.
Lucky? How about instead I made choices. I made really important, life-changing, courageous choices. These choices were made with the Divine guidance of Spirit consistently nudging me along. There were many times that I was not able to see the clear path, but somewhere deep inside of me, I had faith, even when I did not know it existed. When I chose to commit to becoming the best version of myself and to be of service to my family and the world, the things that might appear to others as luck, became my well-deserved life that continues to be in alignment with Spirit.
First of all, I never got a penny of alimony following my divorce and I received child support for about a year. The inheritance I got when my father died was simply $100. I paid the full listing price for the house I bought from my mom. Nothing was handed to me. I have earned every single amazing lucky thing that I have. I chose to create this lucky life.
Here is how:
My first major choice came when I was facing a divorce with three young children, one of whom is disabled. I chose to commit to being the best mom (and dad) I could be. I chose to keep the stability of my home for my kids at the cost of eating way too much french toast and hamburger helper sans hamburger. I chose to stand my ground when it came to raising them with integrity and values. No matter how strapped we were for food, I can see now that something much greater than me was operating and we were always provided for and somehow, we made it. My grown men are amazing people and luck has nothing to do with it.
The second major choice came on an early spring day. I woke up one day knowing that I was tired of being heavy. I was done with eating unconsciously and I was done self-loathing my size 16 body. So, I chose to get a weightloss book and take action. I stopped the habits of mindless snacking and afternoons lazily laying on the sofa. I even gave up ice cream and wine! I chose to create new habits; daily walks twice a day, preparing healthy snacks, using smaller plates, putting the kid’s snacks in a high cabinet that required serious thought to scramble with a chair for a goldfish cracker, I taught them to wash their own dishes so that I no longer cleaned their plate while I loaded the dishwasher, I chewed gum while I cooked so I would not be tempted to taste-test each step. I chose health. I chose to love myself enough to stop unhealthy habits and instead make new habits.
The third major choice I made was on another spring day when someone recommended that I read the book Anatomy of the Spirit by Caroline Myss. I remembered the day I was listening to her audio version while I was out for a second walk, and the moment I felt as if God was speaking directly to me, I got it. I chose to wake up. I chose to live in alignment with who I wanted to be. I chose to live with the right thought, right actions, and right words. I chose to feel the indwelling Spirit as me become, and radiate, the Light I had always been, rather than hide behind the chronic complaining and blaming. I chose to let go of anger and disappointment and welcome in forgiveness. I chose love.
The fourth major choice I made was investing myself into radical personal development books and courses. I immersed myself in therapy. I gave myself the gift of learning boundaries and self-love practices. I began taking yoga classes. I got back on a bicycle. I surrounded myself with people who uplifted me. I said yes to joy. I committed to a rigorous financial plan that set me on course to someday own a home, be financially self-sufficient and stable, and save each and every month. I chose to take ownership of my life.
The fifth major choice I made was to listen to the longing in my soul and share yoga and the process of waking up with anyone willing to say yes. And, this included my heart and passion of reaching those with disabilities or other barriers to a traditional practice. I said yes to my purpose. I said yes to the gift Spirit chose for me to share. I chose to listen and take action. I left a j.o.b. and I ended a relationship that gave me financially security, but left me empty and alone. I chose to be free.
You see none of what I have is luck. None of what I have was given to me by another human. Nobody saved me and nobody did this for me. I did it.
I co-created through Divine Love the life I wanted and then with an open heart, I said yes!
That is a choice, not one bit of luck.
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